Full Moon in Pisces, September 2014

Tomorrow, the full moon is in Pisces. The full moon is the time of the opposition of the Sun and Moon. The solar, outward directed, yang energies (Sun) and the lunar, receptive, reflective, yin energies (Moon) in the sky/in us are in balance and facing one another. Coming into full radiance, full awareness of each other, and in turn, we have the opportunity to become fully aware of what they re-present in us, to us.

The Sun in Virgo (The Maiden) the sign opposite of Pisces (The Fish) teaches us how to become our own integral, individual selves and serve divinity (“The One”) in our particular way. The word “virgin” originally meant “unmarried” and did not mean sexual inexperience or chasteness. It meant a woman who was not married, therefore not “owned” and so she was “whole unto herself.” This is Virgo’s true meaning. Being so integral, complete and whole in ourselves that others are delightful additions to our lives, and relationships are not fraught with insecurities and need.

Virgo is often known for “purity.” This purity is about being purely ourselves. Gradually divesting ourselves of all that family and culture say we should be and shining our own inner light. By fully and unequivocally being our individual self, we fulfill the role and the reason that we came here. Service can be anything. When it’s from our heart and integrity, then we are doing exactly what we came here for and “Divinity” is happy.

Pisces, the Fish, undoes our individual selfhood and allows us to partake in “all that is.” We join the entire existence that we refer to as God, Goddess, The Universe, Life, The One. Pisces asks us to let go and become One with everything. With The Fish, symbol of Pisces, we learn about oceanic living and being part of a system in which no drop of water is separate from any other.

How can you find your own integrity and way of living from your center, your heart, in order to be “whole in yourself?”

How do you serve the Divine, in whatever way you choose to define it?

How can you be one (Virgo) and One (Pisces)?

"You are not a drop in the ocean. You are the entire ocean in a drop." ~ Rumi

 

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I’m back in business! I’m offering my astrological readings through my brand spanking new etsy shop, Insight Inside.

I have a variety of products: natal chart readings (now shorter and lower priced), a birthday month special (10% off when you order in the month of your birthday), and personalized full moon and new moon reports.

More offerings on their way!

Please visit!

http://etsy.com/shop/insightinside

New Moon in Virgo, August 2014

Tomorrow is the new moon in Virgo. The Moon, the feminine receptive and yielding energy meets the Sun, the masculine penetrative and giving energy. For a moment, these are united. In alchemy, this is called ‘coniunctio,’ the Inner Marriage. These two principles in us are joined and working together. This is one of the main goals in Tantra.

Virgo is the sign of the maiden/virgin and the harvest in the northern hemisphere. Harvesting involves separating the “wheat from the chaff.” Carefully sorting, choosing and selecting what will be consumed now, preserved or saved for later and what can be discarded and returned back to the land to feed the next round. Sorting and selecting is important for Virgo, being discriminating in the positive sense of the word.

The word “virgin” originally meant “unmarried” and did not mean sexual inexperience or chasteness. It meant a woman who was not married, therefore not “owned” and so she was “whole unto herself.” This is Virgo’s true meaning. Being so integral, complete and whole in ourselves that others are delightful additions to our lives, and relationships are not fraught with insecurities and need.

Virgo loves to serve. Virgo service is about serving the “divine” - in whatever way we choose to define it. How do we serve? By being unequivocally ourselves. By showing up fully in this moment as we are, as ourself/Self, and following where our heart leads us. This can be our work, raising children, sports, anything that we do that expresses our self and reflects the divine that is inherent in each and every one of us. There is no service that is more important than another. Merchant banking and surfing are just as valuable as volunteering at a homeless shelter.

Virgo loves ritual. Routine and ritual are two sides of a coin. The difference between them is that routine is “ho hum, did this yesterday and the day before,” going about our lives unconsciously on autopilot. Ritual is consecrating any activity to a deeper and higher purpose, and knowing that there are many paths to touching “God.”

Are you “whole unto yourself” and able to feed your own needs?

Where do you sort and sift to find out what continues to serve you, your Beloveds and divinity?

Are you aware that your daily work and routine can be a ritual dedicated to the divine in whatever way you define it?

I will be traveling for the next three months and taking a sabbatical from the internet. I will return in May with fresh ideas, experiences, and a wealth of words. Be well, be curious, and follow the pleasure! 

New Moon in Aquarius, January 2014

Tomorrow is the new moon in Aquarius. The Moon, the feminine receptive and yielding energy meets the Sun, the masculine penetrative and giving energy. For a moment, these are united. In alchemy, this is called ‘coniunctio,’ the Inner Marriage. These two principles in us are joined and working together. This is one of the main goals in Tantra.

Aquarius is the sign of group consciousness, “we the group” and offering our individual gifts to the life and well-being of everyone and everything. In Capricorn, the sign before Aquarius, we have developed as far as we can as an individual. Now, we turn our hearts and minds towards our sense of being part of the human, and non-human, family. The symbol of Aquarius is the man/woman who shares the water from his/her jug.

None of Aquarius’ collective concerns are because of duty, or “should.” Aquarius knows that we are all unique, yet equally valuable, and we all have something to contribute. Aquarians are often known for their quirkiness and offbeat behavior, appearance, way of life. The sign of Aquarius is “ruled” by the planet Uranus, which rotates on its side.

Aquarians can be found pursuing anything that is about expanding our sense of who we are so that we know that we are not just a “me.” Me matters, but is a vehicle for “we the ecosystem,” which the healthy functioning of in turn benefits me. These can be consciousness expanding endeavors such as yoga, astrology, open-minded science. Or collective efforts such as feeding the homeless, getting clean water to people in Africa, Habitat for Humanity. Or festivals, such as Burning Man or Rainbow Gathering. Aquarians are innovating and inventive, trying to find better ways to do things, to connect us all and improve life for everyone.

Being an air sign, Aquarius knows that our state of mind and consciousness is just as powerful as any “external action.” The air signs connect and move things from one place to another. Facebook and other social media are Aquarian playgrounds. You get to keep in touch with your grandmother, your boss, the guy from high school, the person you met at Comic Con. You can promote causes, play games, be invited to events. Interact with and be a part of the group.

Are you aware of yourself as a part of an ecosystem?

What unique gifts and talents do you possess that you share with the group (any group)?

How does your individual consciousness (awareness) contribute to the group consciousness?





What turns you on?

When I hear someone say that they want to “change the world,” I wonder who/what/which world they mean. Water? Dogs? The tree over there? The sky?

What world?

If I meet you and you look me in the eye, shake my hand and say “It’s great to meet you, I can’t wait to change you!” it may be our last meeting.

Your attempts to make the world into your own vision are futile. The world is already as you perceive it.

The story of Indra’s net tells us that everything is intimately connected and reflections of each other, as does quantum physics. The lineage of tantra that I study and teach says “As within, so without.”

Tell me what turns you on. Your loves, passions, glories. Tell me what ignites you, what lights you up, makes your pulse race. Tell me where your heart lives.

I’m here to love and celebrate the world. Imperfections and all.

 

Full Moon in Cancer, January 2014

Tomorrow, the full moon is in Cancer. The full moon is the time of the opposition of the Sun and Moon. The solar, outward directed, yang energies (Sun) and the lunar, receptive, reflective, yin energies (Moon) in the sky/in us are in balance and facing one another. Coming into full radiance, full awareness of each other, and in turn, we have the opportunity to become fully aware of what they re-present in us, to us.

The Sun in Capricorn (The Goat) the sign opposite of Cancer (The Crab) shows us how to slowly step by step scale the heights and both discover what we have to share with the world and find our way of sharing it. Trusting our sure-footedness and the next step. Taking our place in the larger community.

In order to do this, we need to come from a steady, stable inner foundation, a nurturing inner community. Cancer, the sign the moon will be in, shows us how family, our “nest,” feelings, and nourishment are necessary for inner steadiness. The sign of the crab, who carries its home with it wherever it goes. Cancer loves to be surrounded by loved ones, food, home and the familiar (from the word “family”,) being contained by the environment. It’s containment is external.

Capricorn has this support available internally to meet the world that isn’t family, that isn’t familiar, is unknown and can be challenging. Leaving the safety of “home” to venture out and test yourself with and against the larger world. The support and containment now comes from within. We can contain/”restrain” ourselves and we contain (nothing is needed from the outside) ourselves.

Are you supporting yourself both internally and externally?

How can you nurture yourself so deeply from within that the “external” world can be met with sure-footedness and steadiness?

Can you find a way to balance your need for your inner feeling life and your need to play your part in the larger community?

Life reveals itself in small surprises.

The Velveteen Rabbit On Becoming Real

“It doesn’t happen all at once,” said the Skin Horse. “You become. It takes a long time.” ~ Margery Williams, ‘The Velveteen Rabbit’

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Lately, I’ve been telling anyone and everyone who will listen that 2013 has been the best year of my life. This surprises me. Measured in external goals met, it doesn’t appear that way. I used to be much more focused on art shows, art sold, students taught and mentored. What did I get done?

Being an introvert, I have always attended joyously to the inner journey, but this year was a deeper dive, the deepest ever, and this is the year that I claim that I became real. Well, I always was. This year, I knew that I was real. I came home to me, to my own heart.

I’ve been asked how I’ve “achieved” this inner peace, as if you can gain it like a prize! Life arrived with this gift for me and I took its hand and said yes. 

These are things I know, not believe. Not theoretical concepts or outworn new agey slogans. Harvesting the wisdom from my experiences has led me here. It wasn’t all smooth. However, bumps were made worse by my insistence on white knuckling Life. Sweet relief to let go. I noticed how I was participating in any “problem.” I noticed how it was serving me. I chose to receive all the miracles life serves up constantly.

These all interweave, play off of each other and support each other.

You are one with reality. There is no “out there.” As soon as I knew that, cellularly, energetically, in my blood and bones, my sense of who I am expanded, shifted, has been doing loop de loops. Even those I have difficulty with are me. They are the best teachers! This Life really is one energy and consciousness. It appears that it isn’t. We appear separate. I think that it helps us navigate and learn on this plane. With each other as mirrors, we can allow others to take on roles and we learn who we are faster. “You” can never be separate! With this awareness of this wholeness is not a mushy-gushy woowoo lack of boundaries. With true wholeness comes a deeper solidity and surety of self. Wholeness doesn’t separate out and label opposites. You can be one and One.

I truly believe that Westerners have an addiction to doom and gloom, shame, fear, hard work. I think that these thoughts and frame of reference add to and create more of the same. Seeing “the world” as a problem to be fixed, thinking that we know what’s right for others is violence. Yes, I know darkness exists. I’m almost 50 and have been through all the various experiences that a life can hold. I was a hardcore activist for years. You name it, I’ve activated for it. I finally realized that I was worse off, in my thoughts and stories, than anyone or thing that I was trying to “help” or save. I was in fact, adding to the general angst of the planet. I noticed what was of the most concern for me to “fix out there” and found that within. Yes, I know darkness exists. Night comes. I relax, sleep, let go, dream. I don’t lament that the darkness is here.

Notice your habits around violence towards your own life force. We’re pretty sure that violence exists “out there.” We have laws to stop others from ending the life force of others. What do you do with your own? Do you sleep when you’re tired? Do you eat when you’re hungry? You feel like running? Painting? Speaking? Not speaking? Why aren’t you? Do you trust the little piece of life that is the individual you? Do you trust the way that that energy courses through you and enlivens you? Do you trust its (your) wisdom and intelligence? Can you be present with it (yourself) right now and see where it’s leading you?

Notice your habits around your stories and if they still serve you. Which mostly boil down to: “This shouldn’t be happening,” or “This should be happening.” You are arguing with reality. Painful, right? Do you really think that a fearful you knows better than the great big story/song/dance of Life (which is the real you)? If you genuinely feel called to be involved in activism, teaching, nurturing the world into being, you will serve better by coming from a place of love and an open heart. If you must tell a story, let it be a fun one, like this:

All this is happening for you. You don’t have to do anything. You don’t even have to show up. There is no way to not show up, there is no way to not be participating in Life. The planet spins for you and holds you at the same time, animals and insects are doing what they do, same with plants, cells, minerals. The stars and planets are playing their role perfectly. So is every person. The sun shines on you. The rain falls where and when it needs to. The other day we experienced a solstice. This dancing orb we live on literally knew in its circle around and with the sun that it was time to start turning back the other direction. How incredible is that? Your heart beats, your organs do their thing, you don’t even need to breathe!

YOU ARE BEING BREATHED.

In the story The Velveteen Rabbit, the rabbit became real through the force of the little boy’s love.

For real.

What is this?

I  often hear clients say: I can’t do this; I can’t handle this; this is too much; this is too intense; this is stressful!

“This” usually comes up when a project/phase of life/relationship is getting challenging or frustrating. Leading them into new territory, stretching them in ways that are unfamiliar. When things are getting really juicy.

I get curious. What is this?

“This” is often a scenario that we are painting in our heads. We are jumping into the future both feet first. Our breath shallow, pupils dilated, fight or flight response in full operation. The energy going up, up and up into our head. Spinning our stories. And leaving us disconnected from the ground that is always holding and supporting us.

Taking a breath, or maybe two. Feeling our ass in the chair, feet on the ground. This can slow us down, placing our presence and attention right now. Then, we can get curious and inquire. Explore this potent life energy with our senses and sensual imagination.

Can I feel this in my body? Where? What is the texture of this? Is this moving, or still?

What does this look like? What color is this? Is this large? Is this small?

If could go out with this, what would this wear? Where would we go?

If I could take a bite of this, what would it taste like? Would this be crunchy, smooth, liquid? Would I take a second bite?

Does this have a smell? Does it remind you of anything? Anyone?  

How does this sound? Can this speak? Does this speak the same language as me? Can this sing? Can this play a musical instrument?

Is this a place? Where? Is it near? Far?

What does this want me to know about myself?

Is this all an interesting intellectual exercise? More words to fill ourselves with? No. Asking just one or two of these questions can shed light on something that can seem very dark and contracted or amorphous and mysterious. There is valuable information in the answers that arise. All the answers that we ever need are inside of us. “This” is a part of you. Something that is just at the periphery of your consciousness, wanting to be known and brought to awareness.

Slowing down, being in our bodymind self while gently inquiring, can invite this to be known and deepen the conversation with ourselves.

Artists and other creatives often receive an “aha” for exactly what their project is needing. An impasse in a relationship may be seen as a time to pause, and notice what our heart is calling us to. Obstacles become a jumping off place. And sometimes, comfort is found in knowing that it’s time to just be and be still with “this.”

What is this? You.